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Hannah is the founder of Creatrix. She has been inspired by years of being in women's groups/workshops, a peer-led women's writing group, a background in theatre arts, and training in Core Energetics (a body-based psychotherapy). She is committed to living a more creative life and is currently splitting her time between New York and New Mexico.

What keeps me out of my creativity? "The voice that says I'm not good enough. Fear of 1) that nothing will show up and 2) that, if it does, I will be overwhelmed. Resistance to life - my huge, fat gigantic "NO!" to creating anything. Fear of external rejection and the brutal internal rejection of self. Laziness. Comparison."

"I create because of those rare and exquisite moments when something from the other side comes through and I feel divine presence. I create so that you will know me - I want to be known. I create because otherwise I hold everything inside. I create because I like using my hands; because it feels good and fills me up."

From Gaia

The following was in response to a writing assignment in my Qi Gong class. The instructions were to play with writing as the voice of a vaster intelligence - call it Nature, Gaia, Life. What would thi...
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Mid-day Light

There is an assembly of crows building a nest and gathering in the trees above. I will ask for their cries and caws to fill the space of deathless longing in me. For the sound and sensation of wind th...
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Mary Neighbour
Oh, such a mix of emotions conjured by your words. I want to comfort you. Keep writing--we want to hear more. You are not alone.... Read More
Saturday, 25 April 2020 17:35
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Theatre of the Dock

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Mary Neighbour
Wonderful seeing this through your eyes, Hannah. I would have missed this special drama if I were only using my own eyes!
Wednesday, 02 October 2019 09:05
Jan Olsen
I love docks with working boats and old boat yards full of very old boats, and parts of boats. I loved your description Hannah. ... Read More
Wednesday, 02 October 2019 13:54
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Waiting


I've been very resistant to showing up for my creativity recently! In an attempt to touch it again, I sometimes find it helpful to write the beginnings of things. Maybe because there's little com...
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Jan Olsen
Hannah, I love all of your portal photographs. The three written openings you shared would grab me into the full story in a NY sec... Read More
Saturday, 17 August 2019 18:08
Mary Neighbour
The door is such a treasure! The way it lets the light in. The way it is more inviting than forbidding. Your inspired paragraphs w... Read More
Sunday, 18 August 2019 08:23
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Portals

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Dance of Surrender

In my dream last night, I was trying out for a dance performance (It was the first time, ever) I had help from the other dancers -  they were all very supportive In the audition I fell into ...
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Mary Neighbour
Deeply moving. I think you became the goddess of the sky: ... Read More
Sunday, 23 June 2019 10:57
Hannah Neighbour
So cool!! Thanks for sharing this!!
Monday, 24 June 2019 12:20
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Memory at the Base of the Great Oak

There are cave paintings on the walls of my womb Left in blood and ash by the first humans Here are stories from the beginnings of time – the strange, new creatures feasts and fires the long, wet batt...
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Mary Neighbour
This is extraordinarily original. Authentic. Fascinating. I love it, and I'm in awe of your ability to express and create!
Monday, 10 June 2019 16:24
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Another attempt at song lyrics (first draft)...


Did you know you were my first kill? I hunted you for years I crossed the ocean seven times  to worship at your gate You threw me crumbs from your high tower With bloody knees I knelt  and l...
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Jan Olsen
I love it Hannah! Fiery and chilling at the same time. Have you heard of the new tv program starting soon which features song w... Read More
Friday, 17 May 2019 18:03
Hannah Neighbour
Thank you Jan!! I hadn't heard of that tv show...sounds very cool! What a great question...Off the top of my head, I'm thinking To... Read More
Saturday, 18 May 2019 10:18
Jan Olsen
I like Tom Waits too. I don''t know Nick Cave's music. I was thinking Leonard Cohen until I remembered that he has died. ... Read More
Monday, 20 May 2019 15:39
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Inner Monologue


Hey, Tree! Yeah you, Tree, the one just standing there with the bushy leaves. You know, you're too short and too wide. Are you even a tree? Maybe just a bush? Your leaves aren't really green enough. I...
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Mary Neighbour
Thanks for the wisdom, Hannah! I had a discussion last week about our scraggly Russian olive trees, that can barely pop out leaves... Read More
Sunday, 21 April 2019 07:44
Jan Olsen
How and why and when did I miss this blast at the mighty Cedar. She stood there and took that frontal assault with dignity, knowi... Read More
Sunday, 18 August 2019 14:33
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Ham Sa


I didn't realize when I took this photo that it actually fulfills the prompt for the week. Something blue, my shirt. Something made before I was born, the grandfather clock and the house. Something sh...
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Jan Olsen
Thank you for the reminder Hannah, that the dark is also the divine. Sometimes I forget ... Read More
Monday, 18 March 2019 14:14
Mary Neighbour
The way you wrestle with the dark is an inspiration, Hannah!
Saturday, 06 April 2019 11:17
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I always wanted to be a singer

So, I am no musician at all. I wish I was. I can't read it, I don't sing (at least not if there's anyone else around). I love it, but I don't have an ear for it. My partner is a beautiful musician. He...
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Jan Olsen
I heard some music when I read your song. What a wonderful idea to write a song. I would like to hear it sung one day.
Thursday, 14 March 2019 12:14
Hannah Neighbour
Thanks, Jan...it's coming along!!
Thursday, 14 March 2019 19:41
Mary Neighbour
"every time I catch your eye"--you always catch my eye, and you speak to my aching heart. Keep composing!!
Thursday, 14 March 2019 22:36
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Beginnings...


I feel stuck. I feel my "No" to making anything, I feel my "No" and "Fuck You" to life. I've drawn two tarot cards to see if they take me anywhere. I got "Consciousness" and "Father of Swords." I don'...
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I hope it's "just a little bit" to know that I stumble around with my own NOs and FU's. I've waited at a snow-splattered window lo... Read More
Sunday, 24 February 2019 15:14
Hannah Neighbour
Definitely.
Monday, 25 February 2019 12:11
Jan Olsen
I too know deeply the waiting and how it can spend our precious hours. At those times in our lives we waited without the tools we... Read More
Sunday, 24 February 2019 19:20
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Baking from the Heart

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Jan Olsen
WOWZA! Beautiful creations Hannah! Now let me see....I have carrots, but no raisins, I have almond meal but no chocolate chi... Read More
Friday, 18 January 2019 17:11
Hannah Neighbour
Thank you Jan!! We'll have to each bake something and bring our treats together when I'm next in Santa Fe ... Read More
Saturday, 19 January 2019 14:49
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Sit with the (w)hole


Turn off the lamp so that I may see you, so I may feel myself Our own embers are bright burning visible now to soft eyes And I can feel the heat of my salt stinging tears Do you know my sadness? Yes, ...
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It is not easy to stand on our own ground and see our own light, is it?. It is good to invite company, and sometimes that is not s... Read More
Saturday, 29 December 2018 09:14
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Spend More Time


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Untitled

My body feels like church when you touch me – all golden and holy When you speak to me in your secret language, I remember being outside with the fire, or perhaps together in some deep red cave –...
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It was in the dragon's mouth


It was in the dragon's mouth where I found out I was free Swooping down from sky, laying head on earth like thunder He snatched me from behind and I met the dark Sharp edges of teeth and hot breath I ...
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Mary Neighbour
Whoa! What a ride you took me on!!
Thursday, 08 November 2018 16:04
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Wind


The day the great winds came, it was... ...the wind of angry gods. ...a wind so strong, even the raven could not find a steady branch to land on. So he kept moving. Dust, and more dust, in my eyes. .....
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It Is All There


Stop. Stop trying to make something happen. Enter the room and wait. Allow the thing to be what the thing is -- Sit and be still. Observe with all of your kind attention – Be fierce in focus. Breathe ...
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Night Prayer


​Dear Owl, slick with moonlight, watch over me in darkness. Be my witness. Hold me in your steady gaze, hunt me. Screech and howl, Owl, howl – a sound to bring night terrors to their bare and bony kne...
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Woman with Cloth


​This was a 10 minute sketch done in an open figure drawing session. 
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At Church


There is something about rose gold light on a late Sunday afternoon hitting a patch of Queen Anne's lace. It may be my undoing. I am walking with the paradox of loss and the feeling of being filled up...
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For You and Not You (a spoken poem)

Audio - For You And Not You.m4a
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Regal Pups

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Esmerelda


Tigress Queen of Beasts 
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Under Water


The light on the goldfish and copper pennies struck her longing more deeply than it had been touched in ages. Theresa was at the Self Realization Fellowship Center in California and she didn't ev...
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Make Something


Make something. Make anything. Create. Bring a single thing into form that wasn't here before. Forge something fresh from the grey ashes of destruction – from the loss, the insanity, from the broken h...
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Mary Neighbour
You gave me permission to just put it out there, push it beyond my self-censor . . . thank you!
Saturday, 01 September 2018 11:55
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